Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Do you hear a song and know that it was meant for you to hear?  That is exactly how I felt the other day when I caught a repeat of an Oprah taping of  Stevie Nicks. 

The lyrics I heard stopped me in my tracks.  Nothing is closer to how I feel about my mom than the words that follow.

I took my love, I took it down

Climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Till the landslide brought me down


Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?


Mmm, mmm, mmm
Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder


Even children get older and I'm getting older too
Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you


But time makes you bolder
Even children get older and I'm getting older too
Oh, I'm getting older too


Awh, take my love, take it down
Awh, climb a mountain and turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well, the landslide bring it down


And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well, the landslide bring it down
Oh, the landslide bring it down

My mom has been my rock,my confidant and my everything.  She is the one who told me what to do when I started....well, you know...and the one who told me that my life partner was a good fit.

She is also the one who told me when she was disappointed in an action I had taken, but yet, was also the one who would be the first to champion any cause I championed, regardless of her own feelings.

I see my own reflection, and hers,  in the snow covered hills.  In the actions I take each day.  In the words that come from my lips.  In the love that I feel for the world around me.

But as I see her dementia take bits of her away, will her landslide bring me down.  Or has it already?

I think it has.